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2009-05-09T02:11:08Z

Fuck the fucking fucker.

Okay. I need a little rant time about nothing. IN FACT. I have no idea why I'm so..ugggggh. D<

So yeah. That's me getting everything out. Fantastic, right?

I'll delete this later. Not that anyone reads this anyway.

Archery is my best friend~

2008-06-30T06:36:52Z

Have I mentioned just how much I LOVE archery? Going out tomorrow again with my best friend to shoot some arrows. >;D
Oh wait--first to catch up the nonexistant people reading this on my life.

I got burned at Denver, CO big time..and now it's all starting to peel. Ewww. Well. My face was, but today I was all giddy because it finally stopped. And the top of my head where my part is..is still sort of peeling. It's nasty. I HATE sunburns.

On a brighter note..I read Shadows Return by Lynn Flewelling on Tuesday. It was AMAZING. I mean, so worth the wait. It was a bit short..print was bigger AND it was shorter...but soooo good. I won't go on and review it because you need to read it, but I like a lot of the elements in it, but also wish she would have added a few other people in. I can see why she didn't, though. I just hope the next one(comming out next summer. @w@; ) have the characters I missed so much.

Mmm..Saturday I went shooting and my middle finger is a bit sore, but I had a blast and can't wait for tomorrow...or rather, today. They have a nice place here that I know I'll be going to quite a bit more before I leave. I know I'm going Thursday, as well, if my friend ends up liking it. I don't want to go alone. ^^;
Which reminds me; I still need to get her to read the books. I've leant the series out to the friend I went with before and I must say..it was quite enjoyable going out to shoot with her because even though she hadn't read the series, she has listened to me talk about Alec and took it all in. She was making her own comments like, "I want to be able to knotch arrows as quickly as Alec!" and such. It's impossible, I'm sure, but we can always..try. He's just been doing it all his life. I plan to go out more with a friend of mine who is the Captain of his team and practice at the place he goes to...if he ever tells me what this place is.

Ah! I also read Melusine by Sarah Monette. (Sorry, I don't feel like remembering how to do the accent. ^^; I'm tired.) It was quite good. Just a bit...slow for my taste. I wanted to finish it, but it took me forever. I'm also not happy with how she does relationships..How quickly something is over after so many years..and only because of one tiny rejection after being, well, crazy for awhile. I'm rooting for a relationship I know won't happen, or rather, I'm rooting for a decent relationship. I've picked up the second one, The Virtu, and I've read all of chapter three. (One and two I read on her website on my phone on the way home from Denver.) I fell asleep..and haven't picked up it since. I hope this one can capture me better than the first...but if not, I'm almost not thinking of picking up the third book. And I always finish a series. I love Mildmay...he's very entertaining and it's a very different point of view that you do not get in many stories that it is done well. The transaction between POVs is good, but it's just not catching my interest. Then again, I've been reading only Lynn Flewelling's books for the past while and so nothing has been comparing to her amazingness...but...I may set it down and get a different book, then pick it up at a later time.
I would love to ask for suggestions...but no one reads this. Heh.

Mmm..Well, off to sleep..or read..or look at art..or something. Here's a little doodle like always. NineInjection's characters. (From Deviant art)
It says: "There are days when the roles we play are reversed, but I'm willing to play any part for you."
Then me at the bottom saying: "Hmm...translation would be.../fail" I was trying to think of the French translation because her characters speak French..but I could not think as it was way too late. XD Still is.

100 Themes: Lynn Flewelling Style [[Sleep]]

2008-06-17T10:11:40Z

Mmm..Today(Well..it's 4am, so technically yesterday..but whatever) I went out and ended up getting the Acoustic Guitar from my best friend, Jamie. Well...I got it from her mother since Jamie wasn't there.
And it's sooo pretty~
Stayed over 2 hours talking to her mom, though. That I enjoyed quite a bit.
But I ended up not going on my run tonight because I twisted the ankle I had sprained awhile back..And now it's sore and swollen again. I'm such a clutz. :/

Annnd~ My tablet sensativity wasn't working most of the day, so that made the commission annoyingly hard to color..and I couldn't draw in the hair. No sensativity=ugly hair.
So then it finally came back and I was too annoyed with it to continue on my commission. Went on Paint Chat (Artgrounds(dot)com) for a bit. Then I almost finished a Book Meme. I just have to find a character I hate.(Do I hate anyone...?) And then draw a place I enjoy from a book..Then draw a couple. =D It'll be fun.

Then I decided to do one of my 100 Themes: Lynn Flewelling Style. It's not complete, but oh well.
Tamír from the Tamír Triad by Lynn Flewelling Sleeping. Either mid-third book or later. *shrugs*
The only problem with this is the spoilers I might accidentally have...So if it has a spoiler, I'm just going to make it 'Mature' on DA. This one, however, doesn't. So I can post it to those nonexistant people watching me then go off to bed. It's already 4am. Looks like I won't be running this morning, either. Hopefully tonight.

Big pillow is big. =D Gosh. A failure at trying to make it LOOK like Tamír. But I'm also going to work on one that I want to make a shirt out of with the commission I've...got commissioned from someone on DA. They are drawing Alec & Seregil for me, like I'm sure I mentioned before. So then I'll be doing the shirt of the Tamír Triad and there will also be an awesome Nightrunner shirt to send Lynn Flewelling, as well. =D I just hope mine is decent enough in the end to send..but I suck and probably won't send mine. >_>
If only I had someone watching. xD I want to post it on here and get feedback. But whatever. Night, Myself.

The Oracle's Queen--Finished

2008-06-13T04:34:17Z

Yaaaay~! I finished The Oracle's Queen by Lynn Flewelling today and absolutely loved it. For the last two chapters my gut was in knots over the fact that it was almost over and I had so many questions left, but as I've found Lynn Flewelling does well is that you'll have a small part of her book left thinking, "Shoot! I'm not going to get out of this book what I want!" and she manages to give it to you all with less than 50 pages(and yes, that can sometimes seem like a little! Especially at the end of a book/series!) in a way that leaves you completely satisfied. Never is it just thrown in. I wanted more, though. It was the last book and I sooo wanted more. She still told us how the future worked out..but I wanted more~<3

Either way, I don't feel like writing a true reveiw. I need to go finish my commission I'm almost done with.
And the Tamír/Brother fanart I've been working on. Just a simple peice I've been doing on the page before my commission when I'm trying to think. I like it~ >D

Read the first chapter of the 4th Nightrunner book. Baaad idea. I want the next one sooo bad now....But I'll be going on vacation next Wednesday until Sunday, then it comes out that Tuesday. I'm hoping my book store gets it in. I may end up just ordering it because I've ordered a version signed~ So that'll come in a bit late..and I don't want anyone else reading that version, so I'm thinking about buying another, too~

Either way, I can't wait.
Now off to work on my commissions. =D

Quick doodles were me on Paintchat trying to think of something to draw. First is just 'Death' & second is Alec from Nightrunner.
Another drawing of poor Alec was only half-finished before a friend came over on another layer and put him in a skirt and..oh my. We torture the poor boy. I'll keep that to ourselves. xD;

There It Is....

2008-06-10T20:51:06Z

Whilre reading Lynn Flewelling's recent interview, she said the following:

"I wanted to redefine the idea of what a hero is, or a villain,
for that matter. My bad guys aren’t trying to be bad,
they are just pursuing their own ideas, just as the heros are."
-Lynn Flewelling [Found Here]

I guess it wasn't just me finding every character lovable. Ms. Flewelling meant to keep the line between good and bad blurred.
It's an aspect I absolutely love to peices about her books. Something you don't often see. So many books give you someone to hate. Someone to root against. In Ms. Flewelling's books, you almost don't know who to root against. Sometimes you're even rooting against what the main characters are trying to do. (Only once for me, and it was a very small part.)

I'll just say this; if you stop by my journal and after all my ranting still don't pick up Lynn Flewelling's books...then there is something seriously wrong with you.

Onto another topic....art.
I've been commissioned by two people on GaiaOnline.com for art...For Gaian gold I never thought I was worth. ^^;
Of course, I woke up this morning with the biggest kink in my neck and only my little sister to help work it out. Bless her heart, she has no strength in her hands and it still hurts like no tomorrow. Thus I can only work on my first commission little bits at a time before it starts to hurt too much.
I hope to get the sketch and possible line art done tonight.....
It's funny, though. I'm more of a cute-drawing artist and both commissions are making me bring out a more..sexy side in my art. I know I can do it, but it's just different. Especially for my first commissions.
I'm glad I drew that art the other day, though. Now I can get the quest item I wanted and have a bit extra to save up for my next one. ;D

Mm....Doodle of the day...

A complete and utter failure from a couple days ago. XD But it's all I have at the moment.
However, between working on my commissions I shall be drawing Seregil with longer hair and...*evil laughter* Alec with a braid. >;D

catspaw101 @ 2008-06-09T02:33:00

2008-06-09T08:39:06Z

Spent my whole day and part of my Monday morning drawing....
I'm slow already, then I have to go back to my regular tablet and use it in an odd place because there is only one place on my desk it really fits well. But either way, I was happy with the result. So was the person on Gaiaonline.com that got the free art. <3 That's all the matters to me~
She also made me pretty art of my avatar on Gaia~

Also, I've spoken with the person who got me into Lynn Flewelling's books and I'm commissioning a picture from her of Seregil and Alec. That picture I'll put on a shirt(with her permission already) from..somewhere. Not sure yet, but I want quality. Then I'll buy three. Keep one for myself and send one off to Lynn Flewelling with a Print of the picture as well as one to the artist.(Shirt only for her. xD)
So that's why I did this today. ;D I want to also make a shirt myself so that I'm not sending Lynn Flewelling a shirt of only someone else's art....

So yes. It shall be epic to have Seregil and Alec on my shirt. >D

Pictures here~

Then she requested this other background:

Energy Drinks, Candy, & DDR

2008-06-08T21:36:56Z

First of all: I left Thursday morning and didn't get back until Friday evening. Then I was dragged to a friend's friend's preformance(dance).
Then after that, we bought $25(@_@;;) worth of energy drinks and candy. I only had one and a half and a bag of sour gummy worms....but we had fun. ;D

It was really odd, though. I fell asleep the moment I laid down and I was dreaming of Tamír and Ki and...I don't remember what else. It was weird and, as usual, I don't remember it. But all of a sudden I had something tossed to me and I dropped it and woke up with a really deep breath. Apparently I 'spazzed' because I freaked out my friend next to me.
When Tamír gets 'something' passed to her magically..My first thought was: "How did she react and catch that so easily?"
Apparently it bothered me in my dream, as well.
Then I had the rude awakening of falling off the bed to wake me up in the morning. *sigh*

Anyways~ Almost done with The Oracle's Queen by Lynn Flewelling. I've just been drawing so much that I'll get into it, then get an idea to draw and stop reading to draw.

Also; I've decided that one of my Ball Jointed Dolls reminds me of Alec. I've got a bow ordered and on the way for him and I'll be making him some clothes that fit the style of the Nightrunner series. Then a blonde wig~ Ooh. Can't wait. Just sad it won't be here before June 24. I can't join the contest. D; I even have a minature Luck in the Shadows book for him. T_T

Well...bye now. Off to draw some more.
He can't believe we still have so many days to wait for the 4th Nightrunner book. :/

Nostalgia~

2008-06-05T05:11:35Z

(I think this is the longest I've kept with something like this. I'm quite proud of myself.)

I spent the day with a group of my old friends...and I realized how boring my life has been this last year. I'm sorry, but my friends in California are really...boring. And then whenever I do something I find entertaining, they'll laugh or enjoy themselves for..like..5 seconds. I miss what I have here. I enjoyed myself today...More than I have with a group of people in awhile. As always, spending time with my best friend here is a blast and reminds me of it, too, but it wasn't until I was in a group of amusing people that it hit.

On another note...Every time I listen to Antic Cafe...I miss Bou. I know it's been about a year now, but I can't stop missing him. T_T He's amazing. Isn't he just cute? *points to icon* And yes; he. <33

Now I'm going to go back to something I also lost when I moved(or rather just stopped doing)--watch anime(Vampire Knight subs here I come~ Shh. You don't know that..), and read manga(took 10 from Emily, but they'll have to wait until after I finish the Tamír Triad. Which shouldn't be too much from now...I'm almost done with Hidden Warrior and I'll be in the care for 3 1/2 hours tomorrow..plenty of time to finish it and start the final one...Four hours back with who is driving me..plenty of time to finish the last one.)
I also realized I have to buy new copies of both volume 2 & 3 of the Nightrunner series. I lent them out to friends..and didn't go the last day of school..so I won't be getting them back until August. x_X;; I don't want to even know what kind of condition they will be in..I trust my friends and all...but oh well. I need to have copies to refresh right before the 4th one comes out~! Plus, it'll be nice to read them after reading the Tamír Triad because then when Seregil talks about Tamír and the gang...I'll be able to follow a lot better. <3 It also supports Lynn Flewelling, the author, so that makes it worth it. ;D

Oooh~ I'll have books and books and more books, especially when I go to Hastings in Great Falls on my trip and get books reaaaally cheap. Half off, usually. Manga only $5...such loooove~
I have..4-5 comming in the male. All have homosexual themes, I think. I first found one through the book survey Lynn Flewelling did on her Livejournal. Then from there I found a lot of different ones I hadn't seen before. I think two are fantasy and two are realistic.

On an ending note, I LOVE Ki. He's just..so amazingly cute. I hope a certain something happens by the end of this series. It's very much hinting toward it..so I can only hope. If you have no idea what I'm talking about.....Bye~! xD

P.S. I think I need a change of Livejournal layout in between searching for Vampire Knight subs. ;D

<3
Edit: New journal...Bou~!<33

catspaw101 @ 2008-06-02T12:19:00

2008-06-02T18:33:21Z

FInals are, obviously, over. I thought I did better than I had in Bio. and, of all classes, Geometry, but I guess not. I always freak out on tests. Oh well~

I'm in Montana now visiting my mother. It's odd, though, because everyone is at school. Sleeping downstairs, I found myself waking at 11:30am. I'm not one to sleep in past 8:30 these days...But I guess the light wakes me up. My room down here doesn't have any windows.

And now my goal is to, when they are gone, make this computer run faster and also try to find some more decent things for my little Dream of Doll baby to wear. He likes his current clothes, but being an Angel....ducky Pj's are just not working for him.

On another note, I might not set up my small wacom tablet, so as I think I mentioned before, it'll be all hand-drawn art. At the moment I'm working on one with Seregil & Alec from Nightunners by Lynn Flewelling. Oooh~! The release of the 4th book is getting closer! But I think I have plenty to keep my occuplied. Almost finished Bone Doll's Twin, also by Lynn Flewelling. I would have finished it already, but I haven't had much time. Now that I have it, I'm trying to speed up this darned computer. I'll probably set up a clean up, leave it and go finish it. Down to the last couple of chapters and neeeding to finish. I was up until 2 last night(didn't get to bed early, though. :/ ) reading. I will have it done by today. >: D
Then there's the second and third to read..then the four books I ordered from Barns & Noble...and then to re-read the Nightrunner series again. <3 Ahh~ I can't wait.

Now I'm going to stop being all giddy and get back to work on this slow computer. Just tempted to completely wipe it. *sigh*

catspaw101 @ 2008-05-29T06:35:00

2008-05-29T13:41:47Z

Wooo~ So English I think I did pretty awesome. Gym, pshhh. That was easier than easy.
Tomorrow is the day it comes down to---Math and French. Math just because I mess up on tests and make little mistakes...French...I HAVE to get as close to 100% as possible. I'm completely freaking out that I'm going to ruin my 4.0 GPA in my Freshman year. Wouldn't that just suck? D: But I did just get an email and she said as long as I don't bomb it, I should be able to hold onto my A-..>_>;;

Anyways...I've been doodling. Or rather, finising a doodle. Or trying to finish it completely. My tablet freaked out last night and then wouldn't work, so I didn't color the shirt. xD That's why it's a bit..blag. I was in the middle of shading the skin...so I kind of just quickly finished, especially when I saw the time. Forgive me. *bows* That's why the avvie sucks, as well. I sort of just had to use the mouse here on my laptop to finish it..and look at the screen of my tablet...and thus I got too lazy by the end to do anything fancy for the avvie..I'll fix it up at some point.

I like her shirt(Folds are, oddly, my favorite thing to do when I draw)..and have decided I still need a LOT of practice in coloring. X_X I already knew that, but this just shows me how much I still suck. xD
Either way, I'm going to go study for my French and read my book. =D

(As always is shrinks it, but you get the idea...xD)

Wish me Luck in the Light!

Finals--Animation & Biology

2008-05-27T22:46:57Z

Two Finals completed today~
Animation--I just had to finish my project. It was rather easy...it just sucks.
Biology--I thought I had done rather well, but I was not happy(just now) to have seen my score..Gosh! I studied hard in that class and got the same suckish score I did on my last Final..I still have an A in that class for the Quarter..but grr.

Tomorrow is P.E. and English..those should be easy. Plus, I have a safe grade in both classes, so it's not too stressfull. Studied two hours today for English...

Then it's Math and French. @_@ I'm pretty much the top student in French...but I have a B+...the highest grade. It's making me fustrated...she said after she put in a few grades it should go up..but if I bomb the final....Grrr.
And Math..is pretty safe. It's about a mid-A..and I'm pretty good in that class. I just always screw up on big tests. *sigh*

I'm just happy it'll be over this week...though Thursday..ugggh. I'm so worried for French..and that was one of my best classes! These tests lately, though, have just been killer. Noone has been getting above B's....:/
Enough about school....>_>;;

I feel sad. I forgot to wear my ring to school today. *has it on now* Tomorrow I shall, with green and purple to make it stand out. ;D

Oooh~! I read A Seperate Peace for English..and it's absolutely amazing. (Final for it tomorrow...>_>;; ) I loved the ending especially. I had to stop, though, beacuse I was finishing it after my Bio. Final..and was starting to tear up. So then I read the rest on the way home. Absolutely fantastic. <33 I can't wait to take the Final on that~! ;D

Alrighty. I'm going to go giggle to myself about getting the 4th Nightrunner book signed by Lynn Flewelling~!

Luck in the Shadows!

catspaw101 @ 2008-05-26T15:28:00

2008-05-26T22:44:38Z

To Fanime I went. At Fanime I had an amazing time. See? I was being stupid.
I spent most of it with a friend that I have known, online, for...almost a year now. We met for the first time about a week ago, then spent all Fanime together. =D It was a blast. I still have her BJD, Prince, though....I'm almost hoping she doesn't make it tonight. I wouldn't mind keeping him through the summer. That would mean she kept mine through the summer as a trade. *shrugs*

Mmm, wow. Ragnarok private servers can be rather addicting. I have named all my characters, minus two, after Nightrunners by Lynn Flewelling.
Aurenfaie(They don't allow any accents or anything of that sort)-Gunslinger (The most contradicting of them all. xD)
Valerius-Acolyte/Priest/High Priest
Seregil-Thief/Assassin/Assassin Cross
Alec-Archer/Hunter/High Sniper
Talimenios-Archer/Bard/....Clown (I prefer Minstriel...)

So yeah. That's fun. ;D Seregil is my best monster-fighter...Alec, ironically, is my best in PVP(player vs. player).
It's totally fun. ;D

Anyways. I got this amaaaazing ring at Fanime. It's made out of purple wire that wraps around your finger in a pretty design, then embedded in the front is a leaf. My friend saw it and she was all, "That reminds me of Auren Silverleaf!" I hadn't even thought of that. I just fell in love with it when I saw it and couldn't figure out why. The leaf is green, however, but it has made me want to cosplay as Seregil in his little Bard persona~ That'd be an all-around fun cosplay...and persona to play. Just have to decide how to do it.
I'll get better pictures of it later, but couldn't get anything decent via phone.

P.S. I know I did Nysander wrong. He has white hair blada-blada. I read the first page of The Bone Doll's Twin by Lynn Flewelling and thought of him younger and drew my avvie. It's probably wrong because I've yet to continue the book because I'm studying for finals...but oh well. I like it. ;D

Done with my rambling. Here's a little doodle to end this with. A real life friend's avatar from Gaia.

Fanime...Huh.

2008-05-22T04:06:53Z

Well, I was actually..really looking forward to this for the last year. Fanime, that is. But I'm stubborn, and I can't even figure out why.
Actually, I just want to smack myself over the head with a pan. My dad, rightfully, doesn't feel comfortable letting me stay in the hotel room with my Animem Club members. I guess I'm too stubborn. I want him to trust me and let me stay...and basically said I don't really want to go if I have to drive the hour and a half there and back for the four days of it. I know that'll put me in a bad mood..and with all the trouble that has come with it, I'm not sure I could enjoy it anymore.
Well, thanks to my stubborness, it looks like my dad has pretty much said no to letting me stay there, and as such, not only is $83 going to waste(registration and help toward the hotel room), but now I feel like crawling in a hole and not comming out. But no, I will not do that. I am studying for my finals right now instead(but wanted to take a moment & update) and can think of it as another three days to study for my finals..that I'm almost positive I'm going to pass without studying.

Now here's why I don't even trust myself---I feel like I'm seriously losing my memory. I wake up in the morning, and I'll know that I needed to do something, but I won't remember it. I'll be reminding myself two minutes before needing to do something, and when the time comes, I won't do it/will forgot it. I'll need to stop somewhere after school, say a teacher, and I won't remember it until I'm home. And that's 45 minutes away. It's been this last year and a half and it's just been getting worse and worse. Stupid? Immature? I honestly think and think about something and can't remember. I almost want it to be something like a brain tumor so I don't just feel so damned...stupid. *shrugs*

On a happier(?) note, I went and saw Death Note(1st Live Action in theaters)...Is that a happier note? Either way, it was absolutely awesome. If I don't go to Fanime this weekend, I can at least drool over the images in my head of L's sexy self and glorious English dub. <33 See it! Viz did an awesome job at dubing a live action. The beginning was a little odd because you're like, 'This...is dubbed...,' but then you totally fall in love. Especially after seeing L. The only thing that was odd was that Misa Misa had..black hair. Huh. Either way, totally awesome. (Had to explain to this girl's mother beside me about Misa and her Death Note, since you simply see her stalker going down and the Death Note falling from the sky...)

So I leave us off on a happier(?) note. I'm off to go study/read.

Luck in the Shadows, and in the Light.
Wind to thy wings.

I'll report more tomorrow...Maybe I'll still go to Fanime by some chance, maybe not. Whatever happens...happens. It could be worse. 'It could be raining.' (Though to me that's better...)
I complain, but I know people have it worse off than me. I am thankful for what I have, and I know I sometimes don't give enough thanks, and I take it for granted. Putting it here let's me not have to hold it in, and allows me to see how stupid and petty I'm being. If you read this...you're crazy. But I love yah. ;3
Doodle of the night~ Alec(Nightrunners) was probably told something he was...ashamed of? Kind of old drawing..back when I first read the book, but I haven't any recent...anythings. Bye now!

What do you do when it's happenin' to you?

2008-05-19T22:37:09Z

Tick, tock, tick, tock. Boo!

Okay, so maybe I should lay off the caffeine, which I have been doing--until today. I had a Monster in my backpack and was thirsty at lunch..and thus having no food and only that lone Monster, I drank about half. Any more gives me a headache. Then, of course, gave it away to my good friend who was all lovey-dovey with her boyfriend.
I feel very left out of my groups lately. Not because I want a boyfriend, quite the opposite as I prefer to stay single until college, but because they all have one and...as expected..they are more tentative to their new boyfriend/girlfriend. Which is totally understandable and I give them their space by reading, (Currently A Night in Shining Armor. ...By Jude Deveraux. My aunt swears by it and has read it 6 times, apparently, and my step-mom said she enjoyed it a lot...so I picked it up and started it. Only 8 pages in because I had only a few minutes to read before I was engaged in conversation, but review to come later when I finish) or anything I can do to stay out of there way. There are just two weeks left, and really only this week to talk..and then I'm gone to Montana the day school gets out....so I'll admit that I'm a bit...sad, I guess.
Anyways~ I then had a...Burger King large Volt that a friend gave me because...I made her a Rinoa(Final Fantasy) costume for Fanime. Which, by the way, I was not very proud of. Oh well.
So I've had a lot and my hands are shaking. I'm waiting to crash. Asking for it, even.

But to my reason for getting on--and here I wanted to keep this short because I go on and on without any order to my thoughts--is that I've found the praise that gets me in the highest of spirits. This is my last caffeine-like addition to my energy, really.
My English Pre-AP(an honors class if you don't have it...preparing us for AP, which gives us college credit) teacher walked by while passing a paper out and said quietly that she was absolutely in love with my essay paper I'd done on A Tale of Two Cities by Charles Dickens. I thought she meant one of the ones for our test, not the big one. I'll admit--I forgot we had even done a big one--it was so very long ago. (Okay..only a few weeks..but still. My memory fails me at times.)
I go to her after class to ask about it, as I'd watched and she hadn't said anything to anyone else about their's. So she tells me that it was our huge TOTC essay and that she 'absolutely loved my insight, especially for a Freshman. Teachers love that kind of insight, as it is a rare thing, and I was very impressed by your ability to look far deeper than the surface and bring up points most wouldn't even come close to thinking.' Now, this is something I've always gotten from my teachers, and it's always something that I love to know I still have. Insight. I can't look at something and not be lost in thought about it. That's just how I am. Even when we were peer editing, my peers found it deep. I love writing essays, I really do, but what type of jobs would I ever be able to do with a similar objective? I haven't been able to think of one that would truly be enjoyable.

I'm not tooting my own horn. I was just really happy to hear that she enjoyed my deep thinking. That's why I love having a book in my hand at all times, and that's why Twilight just hasn't been doing for me as it once did. I thought deep into it, at first, but it became less and less what it had first been for me.
My teachers tell me this--they love my deep thinking, but have issues with my organization. As you'll come to find, my lone or nonexistent watcher, is that I have the worst organization...ever. I'm a scatter brain...big time. But this new Shaffer(spelling?) method is absolutely amazing and has helped me organize in a way I never thought possible. <3 Thank you, Ms. Shaffer!

So to end this, I'm in a good mood and think I might even be able to keep this journal up, but I hope I can stop doing these long, long posts. Next time, hopefully, it'll be nice and short. That's what I can hope for anyway.

Upa-dation, a little lat---tion?

2008-05-19T02:49:52Z

Either way, I have decided I have nothing better to do than start posting here daily. I figured out my problems with these type of things:
1st: I have nothing to say about my life as it is rather boring.
2nd: No one reads this and, as stated above, I do not need a boring life-journal...

But then I decided--maybe I do. I can post art here instead of my little art blog and sketches that will not be on DA...as well as just random things.

Today, I want to do a little book-talking.

First, I was one of the original, say, 30 Twilight (by Stephenie Meyer) fans. I know--whenever were there only 30? So maybe I should reiterate...one of the original 30 obsessive 'find-anything-and-everything' fans. I talked to Stephenie on a regular basis online and I was friends with the creators of the Twilight Lexicon. Bree, as you know from the third book, was based off a real person--another one of my friends and fellow fans. I knew all about her part in the book(well, that Bree was going to 'die brutelly in the third book', as she told us few back then).
Now where am I going with this? I have found the fandom to be too much now. Like, I am sure I will talk to them and now that three years have passed, I will be forgotten(And I do not mean that in a 'oh, woeis me' way). We even had our own code words for the characters. We used them daily. I bet I am one of the only who remember those words(as I had brought them about and even Stephenie used a few)...We were a close-knit group. I miss that. But what I realized is that..I am just not in love with the books like I was. I will admit, I was dissapointed in New Moon and, sadly, as with Eclipse. It just was not that almighty book for me it once was. I have moved on, I think, not only from the series, but from the genre. It just does not offer as much for me as I have found novels like Nightrunner (Lynn Flewelling) and The Last Herald-Mage (Mercedes Lackey) series have. And not just because both have a gay theme to them, though I find those to be more promising half the time than heterosexual romances, but because of the time period. Bards, bows and arrows, a time when you have to watch your back for someone with magic or weapon, and all around a very active period. Kings, queens, and politics that I never thought I would ever be interested in.
Now this brings me to the topic I wanted to bring up---technology has made life a bore. Now you might be thinking 'You would not be on here, getting most of these books so easily, or finding such information with ease if not for this technology you say makes life a bore'....and that is true, but there was so much to do...so much activity. Festivals, kings and queens, rich clothing, and none of what we have now. People were not as obese then, did not dress with their pants down to their tighs, and certainly took more care of the world than they do now! (No grafitti!) But do not get me wrong--I love the ability to communicate with people all over the world. The problem, though, is I make such amazing friends and never get to...meet them. And that puts me off from getting to know them in the first place. There is a dissapointment in not knowing them and having them in your every-day physical life.
All in all, I would have loved the chance to be one of many who knew archery(though I am taking it, I got lucky knowing one other person who knew it...but no one else in my area), and the wonderful clothing of the time--I would have loved it all! Of course, I would have followed more of Beka's path from Nightrunner and would go against the flow and be wearing and doing what the men did, though not in the Guard.....but it would have all be amazing. Absolutely amazing....*swoon*

For what this was really all about. I have found myself with Twilight as a book I will always remember--a true passion and connection beyond the book that I have never had before, but with God-Shaped Hole & How To Kill A Rockstar (Tiffanie DeBartolo) where I have spoken with the author, but only once or twice...and while they are my favorite books in that catagory, pale in my mind to a world that we once had--with just a bit more(sorcery, worlds that are not Earth but similar, ect.).

So if you have any suggestions, if anyone is actually ever going to read this, please tell me. I enjoy homosexual themes, but love a good heterosexual theme as well. There is just so much more...everything to homosexual relationships if the author knows how to write them. That's why both the series, Nightrunner & The Last Herald-Mage, have such a huge place in my heart. They have that same time period, focused on personal, political, and so many deep issues, along with a well spun side of romance that you feel for, you live, that they are beyond amazing. Not too much in magic(though some might try to say different when talking about The Last Herald-Mage, but it's so much more than magic that it really is a small part in the book. The book is about Vanyel and showing what is beyond that magic, really.) and so much...everything.

That is a pretty crappy way to end this, but I'm being dragged into a roleplay. Or, I think I am.
Either way, I have been working on developing my own book. I'm sure I won't go anywhere with it...I'm too much of a procrastinator...and I wrote the opening in the A.M. and found that I want a different main character, and a different story, but I am not sure what. Either way, here is one of the characters who will probably be totally changed....I doodled him up for my MSN icon. Here is his human version...He is something of...well, he was basically cursed by a demon or something, thus his eye being all but..exploded and such. He is the type to not be serious in really any situation, despite being one of my oldest characters of the age of 149(he deals in sorcery, but at the moment, I am not sure what kind). I had a lot of ideas down, but I want to get more books in my mind, more ideas, before I start anything. Enjoy little Talsai. ;D (All chibified and such. xD Art I will be doing for it, if I ever do anything for it, will be realistic...*shrugs*) I will end with his cute little face~

Of Life & Death; Love & Trust,
Raelynn

Soon to come!

2007-05-10T01:05:14Z

Just as the subject says...my dolls are soon to come!
Well...actually it is more doll..without the 's'..but I *am* getting the twins Too and Bee-A from D.O.D. (New body. :3 )
One I will be giving to my best friend(well..she won't take something that expensive as a gift..so I'm using the words, 'letter her hold on to it' ). She's agreed that we will be sending clothes back and forth once I move to California this summer.

We already have their backstories. Not very original, but we like it anyway.
Too, who will be named Mai, is an angel. Bee-A, who will be named Keara, is a demon/devil. They are waaay old.
Mai is one of Micheal's right hand men. As was Keara until she betrayed them when Lucifer left Heaven. She went with.
They could still communicate, but can not see each other. (That freaky twin communication-type thing, you know? )

Now to where we get them in doll form: Mai is sent down to Earth to help them stop the demons. Or as Jai(my best friend) so bluntly put it: To tell the demons to stfu, noObs.
He runs into Keara right away, who was sent to assassinate him. She can't bring herself to do it so Belial(another word for devil. Nifty, right? I'll be getting a CP El for his character) is sent to do it in her place. He fails and Linx(D.O.C. Ivan) brings Mai into his care.

And we go from there. We'll be having fun creating outfits and little OOC photostories/ in character photo shoots(while I'm still in Montana until I move at the end of the summer). Then we'll do the photo shoots and stuff about their real story once I get the CP El...then I'll be saving up for D.O.C. Ivan. I have a bit saved already so it shouldn't take...*too* long.

But I can't wait until the twins arrive! Almost starting on week 2! <3

catspaw101 @ 2007-04-12T18:31:00

2007-04-13T00:48:26Z

Hiya!
Let's see if I actually keep this up! ^^;

So lesse.
-Anyone attend SakuraCon '07? It was an absolute blast! I can't wait for '08.
Cosplays planned are: Zelda(Twilight Princess version), Sora(Kingdom Hearts II), and Rowan(Elemental Gelade).

-Anyone have any BJD? I'm a member of Den of Angels(Catspaw)..and soon hope to own my little Linx(D.O.D. Ivan). With my birthday coming up(I'll be 14), I'm hoping to get closer to that goal. I've asked for cash this year instead of items..just so I can get him~ I've been sewing a few things for him for when he comes!

About My Life Recently
Alrighty. Tests, tests, and tests galore! Ugh. It's annoying.
As for this weekened I'll be heading up to Great Falls to visit some family. (I live in Billings, MT...I want out!) My older cousin,(by a few years) Jared, and my younger cousin(by a few months), Jordan. I can't wait. <3
Yep yep. My life is pretty boring at the moment. Though SakuraCon over Easter weekend was absolutely fantastic..but I already mentioned that above.

So stopping here before I bore you!

Saving For:
-Cash for Copic 72 set: $40/$428.40
-Money in Paypal/Bank for BJD Ivan [link] : $124.59/$415.25
Apart Of:
-DeviantArt.com (Raezyn101)
-DenOfAngels.com (Catspaw)
-GaiaOnline.com (Raezyn101)
-http://genkigirl.com/phpBB2/index.php (Raezyn101)